What my eating disorder has made me:
- A liar
- A thief
- A sneak
- Out of control
What my eating disorder hasn’t made me:
i wish i was thinner but i also wish that i didn’t wish I was thinner
Who taught me to suck in my stomach,
or my cheeks?
Who told me to stand with my legs apart
and my hips thrust back
to create the illusion of a gap
between my thighs?
Who made me believe that the most beautiful part of me
is my negative space?
Go on ANON and tell me what you think of me. I do not want to know who it is, at all. Don’t tell me who it is, don’t give me hints, don’t say your screen name. Tell me exactly what you think of me. Don’t sugarcoat things. Don’t lie. If you hate me, tell me why. Tell me what I’m doing wrong. If you like me, tell me why. Tell me exactly what you think of me.
My immediate answer is yes definitely. But then i wonder that if i did have a day recovered i would have to deal with the guilty thoughts the next day if that makes sense
Cant think of the specific ways. I guess its mostly the people who love me seeing me hating myself so much